Happy New Year!

2011. One more year gone by. This year is big. It just might be THE year. I am turning 25 after all. Not quite sure how I feel about that but more on that in April. 2010 has been very eventful - made new friends, lost some old friends, did something new and exciting, travelled, took up a hobby. In fact, it could be just about any year! So what makes last year so special? I found my rock. The special someone I could do all these things with, year after year. The one person who, in a short span of time, has gotten to know me like no one else.

2010 is going to be the year that changed everything, because of you. In 2011, I look forward to marking our first year together and hope that it is only the start of many more years to come. Happy New Year!

The drug that fuels passion

What we all need.. is more passion. Passion for something other than the mundane things we do in life. Unless of course your passion IS your life. I am not talking to you. You are already ten steps ahead of me.

Ideally, we would all like to be living our dream. But for those who are not producing music at your favorite artist's record label or traveling the world attending glitzy do's, where do you find passion? What is the strong sense of connection that keeps you going? How do you find the strength to take on life's chores that find no escaping.. the job, grocery shopping, social meet and greets.

Some of us go through life without finding that elusive something we'd give up saturday nights for. Others are in an eternal journey of discovering multiple addictions. I would like to have just one thing, one thing that would take me away from this monochrome film and transport me somewhere distant, if only for a few colorful moments at a time. I believe I have found my drug. May it bring me the peace I have been searching for. May you find yours.

Eyes shut, eyes open - Blink

So what do you think? Um...I don't know yet. Maybe it will come to me. Seriously? If you have no clue at the moment, what makes you think you are going to have an epiphany! Why not? I just need a better understanding of the situation. Understand, Evaluate, Validate. That's how it's supposed to be isn't it? The logical thought process of a normal humanoid. Ha! Nice try at claiming to be normal! But let's save that for another conversation. Since you are never going to be jumping out yelling Eureka at any point in the foreseeable future, I can try to elucidate.

Hold on! You are a piece of work you know that! Claiming to know me better than myself. I should just shut you out. This is what a person gets for being accommodating. I try to put a roof over your head and how do you return the favor? By trying to evict me? Well here's a news flash - I am the reason you exist! There you go being all high and mighty again. Get off your high horse woman! You are not superior to me in anyway! Sigh. You won't let me be will you. So what were you saying? That's better. Have you ever given much thought to that tiny voice in the back of your head? Two seconds, that's all the time it takes for you to really listen to it. Two seconds? You know that's like the blink of an eye right? I guess that's accurate.

Hmm. [Blink]. Well, I didn't hear anything! So this is how you want to play? We can keep at it all night if you want to. I am not going anywhere. Allright allright, I give. Let's finish this conversation already! So what about that tiny voice? It's me - A decision in the making, in the span of those two seconds. You just can't refer to it as a blink can you. Ugh! Me, instant, blink, moment, what have you! In that "Blink", you have your answer. Everything you need to know to make a decision, right inside your head. Learn to listen to it more often. I know you try to acknowledge it. Then why smother it? Because decisions are not supposed to be made in a blink! There are consequences to consider. And then consequences of those consequences. Oh wait, that bothers me. Do you know a synonym for the word "consequences"?

Sigh. Back to "Blink"ing. I am not asking you to undermine the "significance" of an impending decision. But do give more prominence to that voice. Give it a chance and hear what it has to say. And that is supposed to render my decision making process simpler? No, let me reiterate. That is your decision. Whether you want to accept the truth in it or not, that's what you are most probably going to arrive at, after all your understanding, evaluating, and validating. Ofcourse, they are just fancy words for blinking eh. Diss it all you want. But recollect incidents where your actions were based on spontaneous decisions. Do you see a pattern in any of them? You blinked. So why ignore it just because you perceive a decision to be of greater magnitude? I can tell you why, but I would have to blink. Gotcha!